My day with less Noom structure……
I was ne’er too pleased about yesterday’s noom challenge to log off. I did the best I could but still needed my double blade skates and skating walker.
Full transparency….
Despite less Noom guidance, I did log, weigh in, and drink my water. It’s automatic now. I have stuff that I eat and have established since January and it just works as a habit; makes me feel good; sleep well; move easily. My emo elephant Pat felt heard and satiated within the framework of my rider.
During this challenge, I am currently visiting my mom at my childhood home. I have never had an easy food relationship with food here. It was either binge or deny since childhood; food hoarding since I was in grade school. I lived with much food shame and conditional accolades if I was being “good” on my diet.
In the past couple days, I have felt the triggers of wanting to numb out emotionally but I have had more accessible options and haven’t reacted as I did in the past which is brand new for 53 year old me. Distorted food thoughts have been quite the pattern. Noom has helped me build psych tricks and reconcile with my elephant Pat (who tried to help me cope in the way they thought was best when I was growing up.)
On my visit this week, I have had enjoyable chicago food from deep dish to Portillos but not in the same quantity. I’ve added low caloric dense food to it (soup/veggies). I’ve been much more mindful as I eat; chewed more; relished the food more; and drank water.
Yesterday to honor the Noom experiment, I allotted 2 of my favorite maple donuts in my daily food log. Normally I’d eat these donuts mindlessly while doing other things. Instead I planned a time just to eat and enjoy them. When I did, I got full so much sooner and they felt very decadent; like something I wouldn’t want all the time. In the past I ate these donuts without thinking but never felt like it was special.
The continued exposure, consolidation of information, non judgmental approach, and yes, noomalicious humor, has been a blessing on this less traveled road. Giddy up, Noom. #akintsucrooner
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